Sorry!

I'm so sorry that I haven't blog in a long time. I've been so busy, and sometimes you just don't want to write about anything and go to sleep. As of right now, I'm in the the radio station running the "Latin Island". You should tune in if you are reading this. Just log to globeradio.org and click on listen live.

(My roommate later in the day failed in his attempt to type with his penis, unbelievable!) You can't get more crazy than that. But oh well. I got the ministry leader position, which means that I'm going to be working with people struggling with faith. The truth is that I'm so scared, how can I talk about faith when I have no idea about it! I hope God helps me in every step of the way. I'm so scared though.

I know that I shouldn't be writing about this but, is just something that have been running in my mind for a while now. You know, sometimes you think you know people. You think you know them by the way they act, and relate to people. But you don't have any idea. Beleive me. I had a really provable experience this past week. It was shocking! I guess what I'm trying to say is that you can't burn out your hands for anyone, and I mean ANYONE! You will never get to know people completely, you just never do will. How many people live their life's on a lie, and the worst part is that hundreds of people believe it...Oh well, society.

(At the radio station, a bottle of water next to me).

Sammy

Betrayed

Hi there! Better late than never right? Today was a great day. I mean, I had a lot of work, but I finally feel that I can keep up with it. It's awesome! Although, yesterday I didnt went to bed til' like 4:00am, because I was watching a movie with Jake (the prospie that I was talking you about yesterday). In the morning, as you may imagine, I felt the STRONG FEELING of KILLING the alarm clock. Which in my mind I did...Oh, college! A place where your imagination just rambles on and on. Believe me, I'am one of those.

So today it was pretty busy, as I mentioned above. Goshen City ran a tornado drill two times today, I knew about the first drill, and for me that was the only drill we were going to have, but turns out that they were two! So in the last one I freaked out! I thought that there was an actual tornado coming. Silly me... Always making a scene. But overall, even though I almost die of an heart attack, great day! Full with emotions.

I finished my movie... Everything! Its in is gorgeous DVD case, which looks pretty sweet! (You can see a preview of the movie poster on your right). I worked so hard on this Chase Sequence, and I discovered how much I love Directing and Editing. I mean my heart still belongs to acting, but directing is one thing that takes your creativeness to the other level, it makes you think a lot. My heart belongs in this area. 4 sure! So the movie "Betrayed" is finally done, and ready to turn in. If your curious, not that I have a lot of fans of the blog, but if you are curious of what the hell is the short film about...The short details the story of a young woman (Kristina Lopienski) that caught her boyfriend (Jacob GunderKline) kissing another girl (Emily Trapp). She rans off, and Jake follows her, but when Kristina hears Jacob screaming in the back she suddenly turns back, and gets murdered. Or does she? This movie let your imagination decide the end of the movie...So, it lets the audience decide how they personally want to end the short. If you're interested go ahead and ask for a copy...It's free! Just a little gift from the Blog.

(My roommate just pulled his butt chicks apart and later said that my Chef's Boyarde's spaghetti smells like his grandmas vagina...don't ask!) So there you have it, a summary of my day. Im really tired so I should probably get going. Have fun peeps, see ya' all tomorrow

Im Watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S as I am going to bed. Peace!

Sammy

Jake

So like I promised, here's my blog for today. Can I just say what a great day I had! OMG, it was gorgeous outside. Sunny, blue sky, flowers all around and you only needed a light jacket. It's definitely feeling like spring. Of course, I don't have to say how happy I am for that. It feels like I'm in Puerto Rico every time I walk outside (Which is great!). I finally finished editing my short film. I feel like I live in the editing lab, and according to one of my friends its not getting any better in the future (Yey me!). But may I just say how much I love editing and filming. God! is so great, although is a lot of work. I need to shoot a music video pretty soon, let's see how that turns out.

(My roommate just showed me his penis...awkward!) In a lighter note, I was casted in two shows today. If you ever want to break into a profession buy a "dummies" book. Believe me I bought a "Breaking into acting for dummies" book and the same day I was casted in two scenes! I mean that's just wicked, I haven't even read it. Seriously, buy it!

By the way as I am writing, I'm watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. I don't know, thought you would like to know that. So yeah, I had a great day, missed my music class because I was editing. But, it felt so right!

As I was walking from the theater to my room, I saw this really cool converse sticking out of my sofa. It was a prospective student! He by the way, is the best human being I have ever met. That's why this blog is named after him. Jake is a junior in a high school in Kansas. He is so cool, that he helped me do homework! I mean, what Kind of prospy does that!? He is quickly becoming one of my best friends ever! He has this rock bad ass pectorals, that will blew anyone's mind. Nevertheless, he's right next to me.

Got a care package from my mom today. I love that woman! God! She's like the coolest mom ever. Ok, i'm tired but I will keep in touch.

Jake is reading "Breaking into acting for dummies" at 2:23 am. Says it's great, and that probably is gonna get an acting job tomorrow.

IN MEMORIAM OF JAKE

The project.

You know, they always say that writing is a therapeutical way of expressing your frustrations and emotions. Of that I'm really sure! I mean as I'm writing, I feel the incredible satisfaction in my heart... That's the reason I'm writing this journal in the first time. I feel like I need a way out, I need to express my frustrations out in the blue, to the incredible cyberspace. Is there anybody out there? It doesn' t even matter. I believe in the power of writing, even though the audience is not exactly responding. So, this will be my little project. I will write at least once a day, and let all the stress in this papers. Will anyone care to listen?

So today I woke up at 8pm, normal Monday, Wednesday and Friday schedule. I had a Media law test that kicked my butt out of its orbit. You see, I was procrastinating a lot during the wekeend and on top of that I had a theater technical rehearsal that went from 6pm until 11pm! My schedule didn't give me enough time to study. And on top of that I shoot a short film on that same day (Sunday). But God works in mysterious ways (AMEN!) and finally a friend agreed to lend me her review. Let me tell ya' if she would have decided to not lend me her review, I think I probably wouldn't be writing this right now (because I will probably be dead, the cause: a heart attack).

I quit choir and my music minor today, well I hope it all works for the best. Like puertoricans say all the time, you are not a 20 dollar bill in order for everybody to like you. So I just decided to don't let people bother me anymore.

I don't know, I've been feeling that i'm fading away. Like I'm not my true self. But that's probably due to the fact that in college there's no time to think of yourself (believe me, my roommate is the proof!). In a lighter note, I finished editing the short film, and it looks great. I think I want to be a director...I better go, my MAC just screamed "It's 3 a clock".

Ate Melba Shacks as my snack for the night.

Making Peace with F.R.I.E.N.D.S

When I came to GC, in order to deal with my home sickness, my mother bought me the first season of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. At first I was not quite sure of my feelings for the series. But after a while I fell in love with Monica, Phoebe, Rachel, Joey, Ross , and Chandler. They became my coping for many things. It was my relaxation, my way out of troubles. Now, I know it’s kind of weird to have this feelings for a sitcom! But is just not the sitcom, this guys made me laugh when I was feeling down, they made me cry when I needed to cry, and most important they took me away from reality when I needed an escape.

Is not only the sitcom, is the representation of what it is to me. They meant a whole new chapter in my life. They represented the many obstacles, laughs, and triumphs that I had while I was away from home. I know it sounds stupid, but now that I watched the last episode, is just hard to realize that there’s no more F.R.I.E.N.D.S. That their life’s simply fade away. Is certainly hard to let them go. Who knows, this could be the start of a whole new chapter of my life. F.R.I.E.N.D.S will always be in my heart, and I’m pretty sure that when my kids go to college I will do the same thing that my mother did, give them F.R.I.E.N.D.S, because everybody needs friends, right?

Su amigo,

Sammy

It doesn't get better than that

It’s really hard to be away from home, everybody knows that. But is harder when people remind you of your differences. I mean, how can you try to fit in when people are constantly reminding you how different you are? Is it really bad to be different? Am I the only one feeling like this?… In every new place that you go, you’re going to find people that are going to point out how different you are from the “normal” behavior. You see, I’m Puertorican. Normally, Puertoricans have a lot of energy, and I have lot’s of that. I'm spontaneous, and I love to be loud and talkative. Of course, it doesn’t help that I’m an actor as well, if you know what I mean.

Lately, some people have pointed out the differences that make me, well…me! And I was so close to giving up my energy, my true self to “fit in” in what I thought was “normal”. But lets be real…what’s normal? Isn’t that what Goshen College is all about? A diverse culture for service. Compassionate and global citizens? Why point out the differences of us humans, if we are all citizens of the same globe? Truth is, that I felt bad for so long, because I thought that I was wrong, that there was something I needed to fix. So what if I’m loud? So what if I dress fancy? So what if I have a lot of energy! This is me, and there’s nothing anyone can do anymore, to make me fill like I don’t belong here. Goshen College is for everyone, and everybody should feel welcomed.

Much Love, su amigo

Sammy Rosario